I've discovered something about myself recently. I have a pretty split personality. Half of me seek comfort; a home, with children and a partner and cooking and baking and laundry. I enjoy feeling taking care of, secure, safe. My childhood was quite crazy, i went through a lot and I don't think I got enough of that "safe" feeling that children crave. That half of my personallity is the child in me trying to get that back.
The other half thrives on adventure and craziness. I love feeling free and wild. I love motorcycle rides and impromptu vacations. I dive headfirst in relationships and end up regretting them. I seek a partner that is challenging and exciting. It's that part of me that wishes for an acting career.
My two halves hate each other. When I choose to act, the safe side of me worries about money. When I want to pick everything up and move cities, I realize that I own two pets, a lease and that I have a mother whom I would leave alone. When I find a perfect comforting secure partner, part of me wishes for adventure and freedom. I am never satisfied because I cannot pick which part of me is more me.
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